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Yesterday

Written at Wednesday, June 16, 2010 | can you give your words?

Yesterday was the day of grownup me. Unbelieveable. 18-to-be,but now 18-am-be. At last, I stepped my feet at KTD for many times I said, I wanna go there and meet my friends, heart- talk. They always asked me, when are you going to visit us here?...Yesterday, you said that you wanna come here but you didn’t. We had been waiting for you. What a sad! Sorry guys. I never meant to do those things to you.

I wanna to go there and I really wanted to share you everything that I got in MATRI. I really meant it. Never mind because yesterday was the day. My brother sent me to and when I arrived, I called Syuhada, asked her to fetch me. When she saw me and I saw her, we both were on the top of the world. We amazed when met each other.She said sorry because she didn’t bring my birthday present here, she forgot it. Never mind, it wasn’t too important for me, at least I could meet you. Quickly I entered into the KTD’s hall. I went to library, met Izzah Athirah and Sobiroh. I called her. Izzah shocked and she couldn’t believe that I came to KTD. She quiet excited and shaking my hand harshly, seem that she really love to see me. Sobiroh went out to call the others. Then, Safiyyah came and then Subaihah, and next Nasuha and Aniqah. Who would be next? I couldn’t remember…hehehe… There were too many of them.

I brought a chocolate cake. I baked it by myself. This hands really tired of doing that cake because I did’t have any electrical machines to spin the flour, butter, custard sugar and blablabla… So, I used plastic ‘senduk’ and a lot of energy used on making the cake until I said to my mom, Mom, can’t I continue baking this cake tomorrow? I tired and feeling sleepy. She laughed at me. She adviced me to zap this baking tonight. I tried to finish it tonight. I made it. Spending the precious time with them really meaningful.

Mushi, Safiyyah, Fatin Husna, Izzah, Aniqah, Iman, Syuhada, Fatin Nabila, Salimah, Siti, Subaihah, Nasuha, Sobiroh, Amanda, Shakirah, Naiematun…

Sorry if I didn’t mention the other names but it didn’t mean that I forgot about you…

Missing you all the time, at last it had been banish for awhile. Even I didn’t get any birthday present from them but as I met you at KTD was my the MOST WORTHFUL birthday present I hadn’t had. My wish was I wanna be with my friends, talking with them,even spending short time with them, I really appreciated that. Thanks girls,and I love you. I really loved to say that….

I had a best day with you on that day…

If I have a free time again, I will visit you one day..Be strong at there, I know that you can do it..Facing the problem is the one of usual things in our daily life, if you didn’t have one, so we called it’s crazy or you are crazy…hahaha..Allah is always on your side. He won’t left you alone, believe me.

Lastly,truly I say, you’re always bear in my mind…

ALWAYS and FOREVER....

List-to-do

Written at Monday, June 7, 2010 | can you give your words?

I planned to spend this 2 weeks school break for...

Zapping the registeration of MUET..i'll be taking on this year...
Memorising surah Luqman(the whole...utill the last verse)
Doing halaqah pamplets
Finishing the video and photos of 15zikr..

There were too many tasks that I have to finish them...

Well..start from this 4...and then I will mention the next..

So,I have to do them A.S.A.P...Make it bustle okey?

Just I wanna give a duty to all my friends...

Can you buzz me when you feel that I am NOT doing these things??..

Thank you!~....

I wrote for you!

Written at Saturday, June 5, 2010 | can you give your words?

I wanna dedicate this to someone...
The person I used to share anything about friends,studies and MATRI...

I made a friend with her starting 2005 until now..

When I was in form 1...We were in the same dorm..

we called dorm 'OREN'..

bcoz it was painted with orange colour!

but now..

the name had been changed

dorm HAFIZAH...

When I was in form 3,Allah put us at the same dorm,DORM 11...

now call dorm RAUDHAH

She was an...

easy-going person..

nice friend..

happy-go-lucky..

what can i said about her..

SHE WAS REALLY KIND TO ME!..

The memories between me and her..

Study Chemistry..

"Ok, Aliya! Kalau napthalene jadi macam blablabla...."

i was form 4,went to 5 Fatimah on prep...studying with her...

Yesterday,I went to bathroom PARAS 4...

Something remind me..

Yellow selipar...

She bought it for us..

to make sure there's no one is using other selipar..

that was dirty, used for walking to musolla,class...

She sponsored...

And the bathroom was in clean n clear!~

She was a good leader PARAS 4..

Once upon time..

She slept at other dorm...

She woke up and went to hers..

At that time, I slept on her bed..

I was dead to the world..

the door was locked..

She knocked the door...

But no one heard the knocking..

Until...

Her anger..

"DUShhh!!!!....tok!!TOOOKKK!!!!"(loud knocking)

She burst into tears...

My dream was CUT...

I woke up..and opened the door..

She yelled me..

"Org nak tidur laa....tak da org yg dgr kita ketuk!WARRRGGHHHHH..."

crying in anger

I shocked..

I'm sorry because I was late to open the door..

I knew you are too sleepy..waiting outside...

Maybe she was too long waiting for anyone to open the door..

Pity....

Last year..I chatted with her..

"Aliya,nak gi ireland x?"

"jom la ikut kita..."

I answered..

"Ana bknnya pndi pon..tgk la result nnt.."

She was an intelligent girl that I knew..

All about her will be as memories I will never ever forget...

and it will always bear in my mind..

ALWAYS and FOREVER...

Last THURSDAY,after Isyak...

The musolla was crowded with people's talk..

Made me feel weird...

What's wrong with them?

Making noisy in Allah's place...

I called Afiqah Amani..

I asked..

"Kenapa bising sangat ni?"

Afiqah said...

"K jannah accident...dia dah meninggal..."

HAHH!???...what kind of joke are you telling me??

"MENINGGAL???....meninggalkan tempat(KMB)???..."

"Ntahlah...kita xtau...diaorg yg kata..."

"Ish...ana rasa salah information tu...xpe kita tunggu sat gi.."

Dot and me went downstair...

went to class...

call Biel..

asking Nabiha's number...

"Assalamualaikum,nabeelah...ni aliya...nabeelah ada no telefon nabiha?"

"Weih...asal skema sangat...(giggling)...."

A smile touched my lips...

"Ok2...ana no bha...ada x?...Tau x psl kak jannah??.."

"Kenapa?"

"Biel...dia dah meninggal..."

"HAH???!Ko biar betul!.."

"Ntah laa..ana xsure..."

"Jap...kita ada no kak jannah..kita kol dia jap.."

"Tapi send no bha tau!"

After that...

Biel called back...

She said YES...it was truth...

Sis Nisa said it to biel..

We couldnt believe it...Sis Adila came to our class...

"Korang tau x?.."(frighten)

"Betul ke kak dila??"

"Kak dila baru dapat mesej...terkejut kak dila..."

..........

No teardrops....

I couldnt believe it...

that didnt mean I cant accept it..

I just couldnt believe she was gone forever..

FOREVER!!!

and she wouldnt come back...

No more for

Laughing...

Crying...

Talking...

Calling...

Messaging...

Chatting...

with her...

But..

I imagined she still alive...

studying at KMB as usual.....

No teardrops for her..

Last Friday...I saw notice about her at lobby...

I read it....posting from bintufadeen's blog...

at last there was teardrops rolled on my cheeks...

I did it...

After I read...made me wonder...

She was gone FOREVER...

after that...

No more teardrop..

because I still couldnt believe it!~

Allah knows better...

Allah loves her...

May Allah put her as well as her name...

NURULJANNAH BINTI AHMAD SANI...

p/s:-my english is awful....i cant type well...cant check the spelling and gramatical error..